Sunday, July 31, 2005

Yup it had been long, but not anymore :). So glad that that i won't be the only one posting here. It took me a few seconds to register your entry and the shock that someone else actually posted. Honestly, i didn't expect anyone to post much here anymore, and it was a pleasant surprise indeed, although i won't be surprised if its just you and me running the show here.

Ahhhh, many things were indeed taken away when NS came knocking. Not that it was unexpected, but just that it took away one too many. Some just shrugged it off, some were severely affected by it, while there were yet others who didn't even notice it. Many quoted the same reason : "Its inevitable, when it comes, all you can do is obey, and tolerate for 2 years."

For most, the most obvious item that is lost is their freedom. No longer do they have the freedom to do what they want, go where they want or sometimes even to the extend of saying what they want. But thats just the tip of the iceburg. Its not as though the army is the perfect example of efficiency and discipline, although it is often seen in the eyes of many that such values are the foundations of its success. Much of what is written in theory is often not practiced. Further comments shall be withheld as it is not advisable (at least to me) to open them to the public.

Somehow, NS did really push into me the cold truth about how truly pragmatic the world is, how some people would do things, and by things i meant anything, so as to prevent their ass from being handed back to them. As though they are the only people in the whole universe. Maybe they are. In their own pathethic world.

I've always been an idealistic person, and i'm not gonna let NS snuff that part of me out. Never. On the brighter side, NS had already been shortened to 2 years. Then, those dumb little things we used to do, things that had no real meaning until now, will return to us. Its like that the dim light at the end that keeps people going, no matter how dim, how hard and perilous the trials are. I'll be waiting for you there. Constantly searching indeed

- Things that were meant to be...
by Elfie @ 7/31/2005 03:12:00 am

Thursday, July 28, 2005

Remember how you felt when you first took aim with the rifle? Remember the adrenaline rush, the sweat dropping, the voice inside your mind as you tell yourself to concentrate while you are desperately trying hard to focus your gaze on the round target just 10 metres in front of you? Remember the tense moments at the inter school shoot? The thumping heart, the anxiety before and after every shot, the urge to look over to you side and look at the other's shot, whether you had scored a 10.1 or not? Remember the graceful notion when you cocked the rifle and followed the systematic actions as you readied yourself for yet another shot?

Such a long time had passed since i last had such feelings. Almost a year. It was a great experience, one that can never be replaced. Not even with another gun (the M-16). It is not even comparable. There is just no such passion whatsoever with that particular firearm. I would much rather wield an air rifle than hold a M-16!! Of course, it wouldn't feel right if i were to train beside other people. Not without the usual kowbeh sessions with TTH and ber and gang~ and also the 'ocassional' suanning of people. =D

It'll be another 2 years before i'll get the chance to hold another air weapon again. Then again, would i still be able to retain the passion and join the air weapons club when i enter university? Only time will tell. And other alternatives are already starting to pop up in my head.

- Passion for the sport.
by Elfie @ 7/28/2005 12:35:00 am

Sunday, July 24, 2005

Time to blow some life into this 'dead' blog. Need someone to blow some life into mine too. Its been long since someone last posted, let me see, 7 months? All manners of stuff happened since then for everyone in the club. Part time jobs, A lvl results, camps, army enlistment, periods of petrification at home, uni application, going out, clubbing, pubbing, having fun, depression, taking courses, gaming, remembering friends (and forgetting them too) etc

Guess almost everyone else had forgotten this neat little club that we once shared together. Maybe its because all of us have very different characters and personalities and some just don't simply click together, thereafter we follow our own little paths after the inter-schools. We had simply moved on with our lives and are most likely very busy with it, be it busy slacking or what not. I've only really had recent contact with a very minute group of ppl from arc now, namely candice, tth, ber and gim (not ranked in any other haha). Hope the rest of you guys are doing well out there....NOT!!! WHAHAHA!! joking =/
For those who didn't know, our juniors got the 2nd for the west zone (rifle guys only). Always falling short of expectations huh? Nice try nevertheless. Seriously wonder if Mr. Oh is saying the same things to them as he did to us..hrm..food for thought.

Anybody want to go out? I'm getting too idlelistic at home and if you dont' already know, i don't really like to be home alone. Too bad i'm not a couch potato and the TV doesn't work wonders on me like it does on some of you guys out there. I can't stay glued to it for more than...1 hour plus? heh...oh..and er, don't ask me to go out alone, thats the most pointless thing to do yea? Any sensible activity will do just fine =). Its just too bad for me that the next semester for university is starting, which means that less people will be free to go out. Dang~~ Sushi buffet anyone? Eating's a good thing too! :D

I guess i'm just too free huh? Always desiring to go out, but when i actually have the chance, no one's free. So if you're free, feel free to drop me a line or ask me out =). Bahh...its getting too 'early', gotta go to bed...Ja~

- Reminisce
by Elfie @ 7/24/2005 05:06:00 am